July 2021: Over the last seven months, my world has felt uprooted. We left my hometown for my husband’s job in Fort Worth. It was fun for a while. We looked for a home, putting in many offers, but nothing landed. It gave way to my new friend, disappointment.
Were there tears of frustration? You bet. Lord, I don’t understand. You promised to provide.
Months marched on and the window for finding a house in this crazy market was quickly closing. We wanted to move in and get settled before I started work at the end of July.
But few houses came on the market. The ones that were available were priced high and needed work. We put offers on two houses as one last rally, and were outbid on both. Talk about disappointing.
Disappointment Sets In
After this, we decided to step back and reevaluate. Does this mean we need to lease until the housing market calms down? The thought of renting for one year and then packing and moving again made my stomach churn. In spite of this, we opened our search for rental property. We found a brand-new townhome for rent, and the landlord required a two year lease. A sense of peace came over us. It seemed leasing was the direction God was leading as everything fell into place.
Although thankful we found something, I was disappointed at the thought of renting vs. owning and moving again so soon. I felt God had not provided as He had promised.
An Answer to My Disappointment
One morning in my quiet time I let Him know how I was feeling (He knew anyway). God spoke to my heart; I never promised you a house to buy. I am providing for your needs, a roof over your head, and a place to call home.
He was right. In my mind, providing meant a home to purchase. But that is the key… in my mind. I’m not sure why God has chosen for us to rent. I’m also not sure why that would be the best. What I do know is that His thoughts and His ways are higher than mine. He sees the big picture, one with eternal significance. I also know that He loves us and will not settle for something good in place of what is best. And for whatever reason, renting must be best right now.
Prayer
Lord, I trust you when it doesn’t make sense and when it looks different than what I had pictured. I am thankful I can lean on You in uncertain and disappointing times.
“Through it all, my eyes are on You. Through it all, it is well. Far be it from me to not believe. Even when my eyes can’t see..” It is Well by Kristene DiMarco
“I let him know how I was feeling. (he knew anyway).”
My favorite line in this blog! Encouraged me to tell Him just how I felt about some disappointment in my own life. Thanks for reminding me that His plan is best and trust Him through it.